uncontrollably so

i thought i wanted to listen to iron and wine's version of "such great heights," because i thought it would make me less angry, but i was wrong. so some guy thinks he can whisper some lyrics, big fucking deal. it's not the best version of the song, so shut up. i'm fucking angry.

but for the past couple weeks i've just been really uncontrollably upset. i don't know why, but i'm becoming more and more apathetic towards it. it's funny because a year ago this would have made me shaky and depressed and i would be writing a lot about it. a lot of shit little poems and crap excuses for songs. but this year, i'm just angry and i don't give a fuck.

but i tried to leave the past behind,

i tried to drown your words in wine

but even through that red, i know

the things you said will never be like snow.

just as caterpillars grow their wings

and tadpoles lose their tails and things

i'm taking what i need from this and shedding what i don't,

so when i've left this all behind

and broken what was left of mine

you may forgive yourself, in time, but you can bet your words i won't.